2014 is my last year here
thoughts of Robert M

At the age of fifteen I contracted acute rheumatic fever, was in quarantine the first three days of the twelve days I was hospitalized. From that moment on I was doomed to have a different life than most other people, I was a “severe” medical risk, a time bomb set in slow motion. At that time I did not know what was in store for me, though I was told some scary stories and that I wouldn’t live past the age of 45. And if I did live past that, it would only because I would have had parts of my heart, if not my whole heart replaced.


On November 17th, 1999 my aortic heart valve was replaced with a bovine (cow) valve. I chose the bovine valve because it was a “natural” valve and it would allow me to live a more “normal” life. I would not have to take blood thinners (rat poison) daily and I would not have to worry about bleeding. In what was my normal line of work, electrical construction it was routine to bleed almost daily. The problem with the natural valves is that they eventually give out and deteriorate. Mine is at the state of being pretty far gone now. It was about six months ago that my heart gradient was scored at 50, twelve months previous it was at 30. A perfect gradient is 0 and 70 is usually dead.

aorticverticalpromo180w260hSince I have gone through this already before with my original valve deteriorating I know what it feels like when it goes and about what stage I am at. I’m getting close to that time (how I feel) where I had to have the operation 14 years ago. That time I took it right down to almost the last possible day of staying alive.

Too many people have zero idea what a surgery like an aortic valve replacement is like. The best they can do is compare it to bypass surgery, which is not even close to the ordeal of having the main valve “replaced”.

The following will be my “blog” to keep track of the ordeal that I’ve been through and will continue going through for as long as I am still here this lifetime.

Please visit MY BLOG to learn more about what I am going through daily now.

It is becoming increasing more difficult to work these days. No longer can I do any phyiscal type work, it becoming tougher to concentrate well enough to creative and use my software to do web work for clients, of which I have/had very few. For that reason I am also asking for any help that someone might be able to offer by putting a Donate button via Paypal so that I might be able to stay where I have been presently living for over fours years now. Any and all donations are greatly appreciated.

Also below is the audio of me on the Norman Goldman show calling about the right to die with dignity, it is a private and personal choice, not a choice of the government’s.




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